Not moving
I think it's called languishing, what I've been doing today. I spent the day on the sofa reading, watching TV, dozing, you know.... languishing. The surgery is scheduled for October 18th so think of me then. I can go home on the same day and then do not much for a couple weeks. That part I like except that I'm heavily scheduled so don't know how recuperative I can be.
I don't like the doctor but I trust his surgical skills. "Dr. Warmth" announced, "There's something there, it's cancer," showed my husband (not me) and left the room. I think his plan was for me to see him next when I arrived for surgery. I made the rounds to the infusion suite where I am well known, to my oncologist, to my primary care physician. I made a telephone appointment with her and she spent 30 minutes describing the surgery and recovery. "Don't you think it's strange," I asked, "that you're answering all these questions and not him?" She did and made a telephone appointment for me with him. It went okay, I guess, if you're a just-the-facts sort of person able to dispense with any concern for emotional well-being.
I don't like this chapter.
I don't like the doctor but I trust his surgical skills. "Dr. Warmth" announced, "There's something there, it's cancer," showed my husband (not me) and left the room. I think his plan was for me to see him next when I arrived for surgery. I made the rounds to the infusion suite where I am well known, to my oncologist, to my primary care physician. I made a telephone appointment with her and she spent 30 minutes describing the surgery and recovery. "Don't you think it's strange," I asked, "that you're answering all these questions and not him?" She did and made a telephone appointment for me with him. It went okay, I guess, if you're a just-the-facts sort of person able to dispense with any concern for emotional well-being.
I don't like this chapter.
I'll be thinking of you, Barbara, as the 18th nears. In the meanwhile, give yourself some creature-comforts and some emotional comforts if/as you can! If you need an excuse to give yourself any kind of break or treat, just tell yourself that I told you to... ; )
ReplyDeleteThank you, Rebecca. What works best is curling up in bed with a good book and then falling asleep over it!
ReplyDeleteYour in my thoughts in prayers! I'm so sorry you're going through this again!
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