On 01.02.02, I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer. Too late for surgery, I had chemotherapy, which failed. In May the chemotherapy was changed and I was soon in remission which was celebrated and welcome and lasted nine years - until October 2011. There was progression in 2011 so more treatment was indicated and I am now back in partial remission. But I'm not only a cancer patient - I also enjoy my family, walk my dogs and am learning to draw and paint. Life is good!

Saturday, October 08, 2011

Not moving

I think it's called languishing, what I've been doing today.  I spent the day on the sofa reading, watching TV, dozing, you know.... languishing.  The surgery is scheduled for October 18th so think of me then.  I can go home on the same day and then do not much for a couple weeks.  That part I like except that I'm heavily scheduled so don't know how recuperative I can be.

I don't like the doctor but I trust his surgical skills.  "Dr. Warmth" announced, "There's something there, it's cancer," showed my husband (not me) and left the room.  I think his plan was for me to see him next when I arrived for surgery.  I made the rounds to the infusion suite where I am well known, to my oncologist, to my primary care physician.  I made a telephone appointment with her and she spent 30 minutes describing the surgery and recovery.  "Don't you think it's strange," I asked, "that you're answering all these questions and not him?"  She did and made a telephone appointment for me with him.  It went okay, I guess, if you're a just-the-facts sort of person able to dispense with any concern for emotional well-being.

I don't like this chapter.


  1. I'll be thinking of you, Barbara, as the 18th nears. In the meanwhile, give yourself some creature-comforts and some emotional comforts if/as you can! If you need an excuse to give yourself any kind of break or treat, just tell yourself that I told you to... ; )

  2. Thank you, Rebecca. What works best is curling up in bed with a good book and then falling asleep over it!

  3. Your in my thoughts in prayers! I'm so sorry you're going through this again!


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