On 01.02.02, I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer. Too late for surgery, I had chemotherapy, which failed. In May the chemotherapy was changed and I was soon in remission which was celebrated and welcome and lasted nine years - until October 2011. There was progression in 2011 so more treatment was indicated and I am now back in partial remission. But I'm not only a cancer patient - I also enjoy my family, walk my dogs and am learning to draw and paint. Life is good!

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Comfort doodling

I was saddened this morning to learn of the recent death of a volunteer in the chemotherapy suite. I didn't know her well, don't even know her name. But I saw her this fall, looking well, when she brought me a cup of tea while I was receiving an infusion of Herceptin. Apparently she had a recurrence of her cancer and decided not to pursue further treatment.

Which leaves me wondering, how much is enough? So far my answer has been Never! I want to live Forever! My original plan was to just pop off at 105 and I was quite upset when my diagnosis threatened that idea. But having lived with metastatic breast cancer now for almost six years, I reinstated the goal several years back. I'm mindboggled by others who choose a different course and this morning, I was truly sad.

To comfort myself I doodled a butterfly. Repetition in doodling, I've learned from my art therapy class, is soothing and brings comfort. I'll probably be doodling a lot in the coming days.


  1. A fun doodle! Great colour!

  2. What a wonderful little doodle. I love the colors.

  3. Glad to hear that doing art can somehow alleviate the heaviness in your heart. Your butterfly is so full of colors. It’s vibrant, full of hope, and somehow brings me cheer when I look at it.

  4. A lovely butterfly doodle! The colours are bright and cheerful which I hope helped to ease some of your sadness.


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