On 01.02.02, I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer. Too late for surgery, I had chemotherapy, which failed. In May the chemotherapy was changed and I was soon in remission which was celebrated and welcome and lasted nine years - until October 2011. There was progression in 2011 so more treatment was indicated and I am now back in partial remission. But I'm not only a cancer patient - I also enjoy my family, walk my dogs and am learning to draw and paint. Life is good!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Professional patient

I did not get the good news that I was hoping for when I went to see the doctor today.  Instead I walked away after learning that I now have bladder cancer, something I was completely unprepared for.  I've been treated for Stage 4 breast cancer for 9-1/2 years, but this is an entirely new primary tumor, completely unrelated to that.  I feel absolutely and totally doomed.  Surgery, thank god it will be outpatient, is scheduled for next month.

In the meantime I went to my watercolor class this afternoon, tried to focus and keep things routine and normal. 'Twasn't easy!  I was teary and distracted and cried all the way home.  I am so not a happy camper this day.



  1. Barbara,
    Many prayers and lots of love are headed to you. I wish I could do more. Thank you so much for sharing. Cancer really needs its butt kicked.

  2. I'm sorry for your bad news. I will be praying for you as well. Keep on thinking positive; your little bird is so beautifully done and so peaceful. I'll pray for peace for you as you go through this.

  3. Barbara;
    I am so sorry for this bad news you have endured. I pray that God is with you during this time and I thank God that you have your art to help you through it too. I know that it feels really bad right now but God is and will always be with you. I will continue to pray for you, may you feel His comfort and presence with you through all of this. Your watercolor is beautiful.
    Hugs and blessings.

  4. Oh, Barbara. I am sitting here, dumbfounded at the news. Know that I'm sending good thoughts your way. (I wish they could work some magic of their own.)

  5. Thank you all. I'm coping, sort of, and gathering information which makes it less daunting. I think it's all going to turn out OK, just rocked my little world. - Barbara


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