On 01.02.02, I was diagnosed with metastatic breast cancer. Too late for surgery, I had chemotherapy, which failed. In May the chemotherapy was changed and I was soon in remission which was celebrated and welcome and lasted nine years - until October 2011. There was progression in 2011 so more treatment was indicated and I am now back in partial remission. But I'm not only a cancer patient - I also enjoy my family, walk my dogs and am learning to draw and paint. Life is good!

Saturday, September 04, 2010

Positively addicted


One of my good fortunes is that I have no substance addictions. Because there's a link between alcohol and breast cancer I no longer use alcohol (and I admit to missing a glass of wine with a great dinner or a snifter of apricot brandy on a cold night). I make no exceptions, I didn't even imbibe at my son's wedding some years back.

Nor do I use illicit drugs. When I was very, very ill and in significant pain, I did not abuse the morphine and other pain relievers prescribed to me. I had several prescriptions and a drawerful of medications -- drops, capsules, pills and patches -- but there was no temptation to take more than was prescribed and, in fact, I usually used less.

Call me a flawed human being, I do, however, have what are called process addictions. My two favorites are overeating and overspending. I could probably dredge up others, but those two are obvious.

But what if, I keep thinking, I had the kind of compulsions that actually improved my life? What if I read and studied too much and was the smartest woman in town? Closer to a heart-felt desire, what if I drew and sketched constantly, filled up entire art journals in less than a month? If I did that, my skills would improve and, I truly believe, I would be a happier soul.

I'm working on it. In about three years I've moved from drawing once in a while to more days than not. My goal is to draw several times in one day, but that habit hasn't found its place in my life (yet). But as I said, I'm working on it.

8 comments:

  1. Lovely sketch,great post...(although wish I'd read it before having a glass or two of wine...)you should be proud of yourself and are no way flawed!..we all need some enjoyments(My husband is a leukemia/B.M.T survivor so I can appreciate your comments/strength)

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  2. that was a neat post. I congratulate you on not being addicted to anything but eating and shopping! It could be worse. Many years ago I had to replace one addiction with another and I believe that's the way to get rid of a bad "habit". I chose drawing. it's been awsome. good luck!

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  3. It does make sense that doing art is a positive addiction! I find that the more drawing, or painting or embroidering or creative things I do, the better I feel. If I must choose between art and laundry, art wins!

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  4. You draw a lot though and your skills have improved tremendously over the last few years. I think you are maybe not addicted, but still firmly attached to your journaling now. You are doing great. I didn't think about it but I have to join you on the overspending. Hmm, something I need to work on as I don't like doing that. I have all I really need so why do I keep buying? Yep, something to work on. Nice drawing once again.

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  5. Not only are YOU happier when you draw more, WE are also happier as we get to see powerful sketches like THIS one. LOve it!

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  6. You are all being so generous with your comments!

    My best wishes to your husband's continued good health, Debra.

    Arty Velarde - I follow your cartoon format and love it!

    Timaree, it's always good to hear from you.

    Sue, thank you so much for stopping by!

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  7. A drawing addiction is the best kind there is. Do it every day and you'll soon find you need it like a crack addict needs his pipe. Good luck with it, Barbara.

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  8. Thanks, Wally -- It may already have happened!

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