Not funny to me

Saw the orthopedist today and got the results of the x-ray of my humerus. What do you think, is that a fracture, yes or no?  At least now I have a clue as to why the the pain was so difficult to manage.

I have an appointment tomorrow with my general doctor (I'm taking a lot of morphine, I know that's not the correct term, but my brain simply isn't working properly).

I am surprised by all those who mention praying for me, often strangers, often friends.  Certainly welcome, either way. In the chemo suite I am the beacon of hope as no current patient has outlived the disease this long.  May it continue!

I did learn some things today.  There is most certainly a tumor at the site creating the drop-dead reaction I experienced.  Even I'm beginning to count the days to my own end, but hoping a broken bone is simply a blip.

The next step is direct radiation.  You would think I would be dreading more rads, but no, this is very different. I had brief radiation to four places back in 2002 - for pain relief - (palliative care) and I felt better almost immediately. Radiating a bone is not even almost radiating a sensitive organ such as the bladder.  Hopefully I can get on the schedule soon!

I keep trying to scratch the itch in the crook of my arm - which has suddenly turned to cement.